You are twenty-five and some days you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. Of course this is hyperbole but day-to-day it doesn’t feel like it. You want to do everything right and so you read manners books, observe others intently, and constantly seek advice. But at some point you need to look within. Your intuition is so strong and has never steered you wrong, even though at times you’ve chosen to keep it latent and dust it under the rug.
You already have most of the answers, and every day you discover more about yourself. Today’s discovery? You nod a lot. When you listen to others, when you speak, when you watch TV or read an article that says something poignant. Sometimes you’re aware of it but the girl you work with told you that she’s adopted the same mannerism. It sums up a lot about you, this small action. You are silently encouraging, coaxing people to share things with you and truly wanting them to feel comfortable doing so. That’s what you aim for: making others feel at ease.
You despise conflict and it makes you intensely uncomfortable. You have a fight-or-flight reaction and your instinct is usually flight. There’s no need to shut down. Believe in the good in people. Believe that most of them are oblivious and don’t intend to hurt you. Tell them what you’re feeling without worrying that they’ll think you’re crazy. You’re not crazy. The worthwhile people will stick around.
You have a great laugh and there is nothing you love more (besides polar bears and a variety of other furry animals) than sharing a deep belly laugh with someone – the kind that makes your eyes fill with tears and your face flush. You love making other people laugh and feed off of the energy that comes when you make your sister cackle on the phone or say something unexpectedly hilarious that catches people off guard.
A client recently told you – in front of your boss, no less – that you are fearless. It was a small statement in a long conversation but you wrote it down immediately (you keep a journal of insightful things you hear and carry it with you daily). You realized that her words were true; you’re not afraid of making big moves. This is both a blessing and a curse because you can be an impulsive, heart-on-your-sleeve type of girl. At times you are walking down a staircase or crossing the street and you think, how did I get here? Your fearlessness is admirable and inspiring.
You are a master of introspection. You’re hard on yourself. Though you’re fearless, you analyze your actions to death. Sweet girl, you’ve made mistakes. You own them. The past does not define you. Live right now. Stop trying to justify things. Go outside. Sit in the sunshine. Take some pictures. Stop guilting yourself for things you can’t change.
Try to live more in the present. You think 50% in the past and 50% in the future which gives no time for right now. For 10:15 p.m. on a Thursday night as you lay in bed with the ceiling fan whirling overhead, your soft white robe, and your fuzzy red Valentine’s Day socks. Don’t take yourself so seriously.
You are a hard worker and you do your best. You always do your best. “Nothing half-assed,” you recently said with a smirk. You are a big kid trying to figure out how to pretend to be an adult and most days you carry it off flawlessly. There is charm in having a young heart.
You are loveable. Let yourself be loved.